I see a little boy and he’s sitting all alone.
He seems to be so sad
I walk towards him, but he tells me to go away
So I do

He keeps looking my way
And I think that he is ready to talk
Maybe he is, but when I approach again
He waves me off

I stand and watch as he grows
Like a movie his life plays out before me
I see him laugh and cry
I see him sleep

I see him make friends and play hockey
He sings in the school concert
But every time I try to go near him
He turns away

I get angry at him and say things
I don’t mean what I say, I want his attention
But he starts moving farther away
And so do I

He’s older now, almost a man
There is a canyon between us
I shout across but he doesn’t hear me
Or does he

I yell I’m sorry, I shout I love you
He looks my way but he doesn’t come closer
He doesn’t look as angry anymore
But he does look sad.

He starts to move out of my sight
I strain to see him as he moves away
He doesn’t even wave
Good bye boy

In the distance I see a movie playing
It is the boys life from his eyes
In it he is calling but I don’t hear him
He turns away


He is looking at me waving
But I am busy and I am not watching
So I miss his call
He turns away

He is trying to show me things
My attention is somewhere else
And I miss his attempt
He turns away

Flash forward to a grown man
He stands across that canyon waving
I see him this time and I wave back
He smiles

The canyon dissolves and slowly disappears
He stands before me
So much larger than I remembered him
I missed you

I tell him how sorry I am
And that I love him very much
He says I know you do
He smiles


I am so sorry Ryan, I hope one day we can be friends.

I love you!

Mom